Holy crap Christine is leaving next Tuesday and after that it’s my turn. I think the hardest thing will have to be the homesickness…going into a different state and not being able to talk to my parents on a daily basis, and feeling all alone for the first few day :(. I know there will be many times where I want to give up and/or say to myself “WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?!”…but I know that pain is only temporary, I just have to remember that it’s just only 2 months out of my whole life that I’d have to go through this.
Bootcamp is hard for a reason. “They’re breaking you down, so only you can build yourself back up” is what many of the other graduates have been saying.
I still keep forgetting that I’m going to spend my birthday a week after I arrive at bootcamp. I have a feeling I might even forget because I’ll be busy getting yelled at XD.
Not as nervous as I thought I’d be…I think I’ll just take it as it comes.
Live day to day pretty much.
You know what’s fucked up? When people use your past against you and think its alright. No, it’s not alright, you idiot. You think I’m proud of my past? My mistakes? If I could change it, maybe I would, maybe I wouldn’t but the past has made me who I am today. But the bottom line is, you have no fucking right to be using my past against me. I opened up to you and told you about it for a reason, don’t make me fucking regret it. Don’t be offended if I left you in my past too.